Thursday, June 23, 2011

Israel, I Miss You

A year ago yesterday I zipped up my enormous turquoise suitcase, put on my beloved backpack, double checked that I had my passport, and headed to the international terminal at LAX for what would be my fourth trip to Israel in nearly as many months.


For the fourth time that year, I spent weeks laughing, learning, and teaching a group of young Jews about the place I had fallen in love with.


I can’t believe it’s been a year. I can’t believe that 365 days have passed since I’ve walked through the cities and towns and kibbutzim I’d fallen in love with.


My tan that I was so proud of (from all those godforsaken hikes!) has long faded. My Hebrew is beginning to slip again - I can’t remember how to say “dragonfly.” I don’t remember the exact taste of my beloved iced caffĂ© from Aroma CafĂ©.


I miss Israel. I miss it so much. I’ve said it before and I’ve said it again – I’m a different person there. Lighter, calmer, more carefree. And for me, someone who prides herself on her calendars and notes and sticking to the plan, that feeling is irreplaceable. It’s something I can only get there – can only feel there.


When I got back from that final trip, I wrote a post where I asked “How do you go about your life when you’ve left a part of you on the other side of the world?”


The answer? Well… you just do. A lot has happened in this past year – I’ve traveled and shopped and ate and laughed and cried and worked and danced and sung. I’ve gone new places and done new things and met new people.


But I never, ever, stop missing Israel.



4 comments:

Katie B said...

Let's go back!!

Ellory said...

tearing up a bit...

love you!

Preppy Girl Meets World said...

I want to go to Israel so bad. Let's go together. I haven't been since 2003!

manderz4414 said...

I recently started reading your blog and I was JUST (10 minutes ago) texting my bff about moving to Israel and how badly I want to do it. So weird how things like that happen..could it be a sign? Well I love your blog and thoroughly understand your love for the country, I share the same sentiment!